52

No, it's not my 52nd blog. It's not 52 pick-up. It's what I just turned. 52.

I have to admit, I was damned crabby this past week. I don't really know why. I think that it had something to do with not being quite where I wanted to be at this point and time of my life. Where was that, you ask? I have no idea. More settled, i guess, more secure in my future, such as it was. Settled in a career that I LOVE, and that my kids were happy, settled and wise.

I did not intend to still be dipping pee. Weighing people and taking their blood pressures as I listened to them complain about how long they've been waiting, and apologizing for the umpteenth time for the delay, which I have nothing to do with. Nope, I wanted to make a difference. LOL. I wanted to be...different.

But, as it got closer to my birthday, I realized that in all reality, my life isn't all that bad. My parents never got to live until their fifties. They never got to see their daughters grown up, or see where life would take them. They never got to see their grandkids, or live a life for just them. I've outlived my parents, and am pretty lucky in the health department so far. I could be thinner and in better shape. I wish my hair were fuller. But, I have no wrinkles yet, and people mistake me for a lot younger than I really am. I never get tired of hearing, 'there is no way you have a 30 year old!'. Nope, not ever. I feel good about how my kids have turned out, and they truly are my greatest accomplishment, and I am proud of that fact. I've reached grandmahood! I waited so long, but it has been everything I had hoped it to be. Loving, spoiling...and giving back! haahahaa

All in all, life is good. Every day I wake up and breath in and breath out, is a good day. Every time I get to hold my grandson in my arms and hear all the wonderful steps he's taking in his life, is a good time. My children continue to prosper and grow, and become better all the time. It's a joy to watch! Tony going back to school and maybe finding something that he will love doing...Andrea getting her Master's in May...really, I am so proud of them. Watching Andrea and Chad grow as parents and love each other and Jake as they learn how to be a family. Meg and Nancy in CT, with their kids and lives and family, doing well, and just being good at being adults. Plus, I am married to my best friend! Can't ask for better!

I have a lot to be grateful for...and am so very blessed. 52, I can't fight you, you're here, and I embrace the year that is you! We'll see what it brings into my life, and am ready for the adventure!